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Part of my proceeds of my books will go to the Austin German Shepherd Dog Rescue and the Austin Pregnancy Resource Center. So for anyone wanting to do an act of kindness to me for my birthday, you can buy a copy of one of my three books. 

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My hands gingerly rub over the roundness of my belly, to lovingly stroke the bareness of my flesh. Leaning back against my beach chair I stare absently out at the ocean's tide. Recalling the words from earlier this morning that the Doctor told me in a sorrow coated tone. "I need you to understand that the chances of you both living are very slim. Either you won't make it without taking the chemo or the baby will die by you taking the chemo. I am suppose to advise you to get an abortion so you can get on treatment as soon as possible."
I watched him grow still. I instantly took it as my cue to speak up. "What do you think I should do?"
His eyes clouded as he lifted a hand and rubbed his temples. "I don't know…”
I shake the memory from my mind then silently I move my eyes down to my baby bump and smile softly. "Don't worry baby, mommy will always keep you safe." I whisper tenderly. Out of the corner of my eye I catch the movement of his lean, tall body moving my way. Turning my head I watch as my beloved husband walks down the beach towards our favorite spot, straight to me. Our coming conversation will likely be the hardest I will ever have with him. Swallowing hard I rise from my chair as he approaches. Instantly I am swap up by the warmth of his strong embrace, locked and protected against his chest. We stay that way for a long time before he slowly draws back to gently stoke my cheek, tucking my stray hairs behind my ear.
"Something is wrong, what is it my love?" His voice is colored with concern, the sound painting streaks of life and love into my heart. Giving me the courage I need to share everything with him.
"I have cancer." I pause to allow the news to leave its mark. As it does I release an arm from around him to gently guide one of his hands to the firmness of my stomach, the sanctuary our baby peacefully rests. His hand tenderly strokes my belly as I continue on. "I went to the Doctor this morning. He told me it is unlikely that both of us will live through it. Either the chemo will kill the baby or the cancer untreated will kill me once the baby is born. Once she is born it will be too late to do anything to stop the cancer." I explain so that he can grasp the reality of the situation.
"They can't chance operating?" I frown at the sound of hope in his voice, hating how much my next words will crush him.
"That would risk the life of our baby." I watch the layers of defeat flash in his dark brown eyes. His gaze rises above my head to the ocean’s surf. After what feels like a lifetime passing by, his eyes meet mine again. "You are already giving up, aren't you? You already see it as a sacrifice for the better good of our child?" He doesn't need my answer, he knows me well enough to know his words are true. He exhales a heavy sigh before leaning down to kiss my lips tenderly, his eyes holding mine with all the passion that burns inside him. "Don't give up the fight already baby, we will get through this…" Dropping his arms from around me he falls to his knees. He rests his head gently against my belly. Grasping my hands within his own. "Lord, this is a battle we can't win on our own…You know the odds aren't in the favor for my wife or our child. But Father Your Word says the power of Life and death is in the tongue, and that with You all things are possible. You are the Creator of miracles. Of life. So I am begging… I am thanking You Father for the life of my wife and child. In Your Holy Name, Amen." I blink back tears as I stare down at the beautiful image of the man of my dreams, humble and desperately kneeling before me with his cheek pressing into the roundness of my stomach. I can even feel the warm tears soaking to my skin. His love as clear as the ocean's waves. Slowly I slide one hand from his and brush it across his exposed cheek. How could I tell him that I already felt at peace with this choice? But his prayer, his faith, his love graces my soul with his sincerity, God could easily heal me with a stroke of His hand. I know this to be true.
I slowly ran my hand along the back of his head, enjoying the comfort of his nuzzles against our baby bump. "I love you." I whisper.
His eyes lift to mine and we hold each others gazes. "Don't stop…please." It takes a few seconds for his plea to make sense to me, and when it finally does settle in I kneel carefully down and wrap him tight into my arms.
"I will fight with everything I have, I will keep loving you unti…"
His hand instantly shoots up to cover my lips, his eyes darkening with pain. "Don't say it." And for him I don't.
I will forever block it from my mouth and hold onto every fiber of faith and strength I have. Because for him and for our baby I will fight to continue loving them both.
By fighting to live.
FFM 12: The Choice

Word count: 912

I wrote this Friday night...:cough:Saturday morning:cough:... while I was talking to a couple friends via skype and facebook. (you should know who you are. ^^)

I'm really proud of how this came out, not only because it turned out as good as I hoped but because it's a dear subject to me.
I don't see myself dying of old age, I don't see myself being a grandparent and living a long healthy life with my husband, seeing our children and grandchildren get old. Maybe because I don't want it, but I've never imagined that kind of life.
I sometimes think something bad is going to happen to me, likely because I have an active imagination and letting my imagination run wild is funnier than watching movies or reading books because it works so well. And I'm the creator of whatever flows.

So scenes like this often cross my mind, so the 'I' is very personal. I know it seems kinda crazy but my mind is a rather crazy 'tool'.

I would give my life for my baby in a heart beat, but I would fight with everything to live, I'd cling to my faith every step of the way.

So, I really love this piece.

Critiques are of course welcome though.



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Definitely powerful, good writing
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Wow.... your GIFT of imagination is what is going to make you a GREAT (er) writer than you are.... WOW! This is REALLY good!
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hi thank you for adding my photo..really appreciated....my dogs are the best companions an the most fun they never fail to put a smile on my face ...all the simple things in life are the best.....glad you liked the shot thanks for looking...rgds
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Part of my proceeds of my books will go to the Austin German Shepherd Dog Rescue and the Austin Pregnancy Resource Center. So for anyone wanting to do an act of kindness to me for my birthday, you can buy a copy of one of my three books.
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About me:

I am a third generation Austinite on my mother's side.
A seventh generation Texan from my mother's side.
And a fifth/sixth generation Texan from my father's side.
So I'm a born and raised Austin Texan chick.
Take that y'all. ;)

My Photography account :icondrigerphotography:

What I stand for you ask?
I am
:bulletgreen: Pro-life www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdOCwd… :thumb292250045:
:bulletgreen: Pro-adoption
:bulletgreen: Pro-power of Christ's love.
:bulletgreen: Pro-forgiveness
:bulletgreen: Pro- following in Jesus steps.
:bulletgreen: Most important, don't misunderstand me for being religious, because I'm not 'religious' I have a 'relationship' with the Creator of Heaven and earth. It has nothing to do with religious views. It has everything to do with knowing Him, loving Him, and being known by Him.
Sharing His love with others. Misunderstand that and you misunderstand me.
Any questions ask away, I won't bite.


My best and most dearest friends consist of
(My bestie)
:iconislandstar:
(My cyber-pop)
:icon4givenbyhim:
(My Surreal Express)
:iconsurrealcachinnation:


Friends worth calling friends.
:icond-murasai::iconhillbillygirl::iconbumblezee: :iconguineapigdan::iconkramnhojpapermario:


Wanna read a bit more about my coming to dA and my art?
Here's a short interview I was honored to be apart of by 3wyl

Or are you interested in what others think about my art? Well than check out namenotrequired's News Article about my poetry

Review from :icontwilightpoetess:
'Christianonfire7 is a lovely, kind hearted deviant with strong beliefs and a gallery filled with heart. Her poetry is beautiful and will bring the poet in you to the forefront; her photography is inventive and often catches a glimpse into a different world, a world we aren't all privy to. If one thing in her gallery doesn't inspire and awe you, keep looking--you're bound to find a reason to add Christianonfire7 to your watch list.'
-Written for her Review Competition features.'



DLD's I've gotten.


8-24-2010 DLD feature
The day dusk did not sleep
The day dusk did not sleep.
You stepped into my life when those bullies haunted me,
You stood in front of me and clenched your fist.
Told them to back off and leave me alone,
They feared you, so they obeyed your warning.
Once they were gone you turned to me,
Took my hand and helped me up.
Then looked into my eyes,
And captured me with your smile.
That was the day the mountains shook,
The day when the oceans went silent.
When time stood still for the very first time.
When the colors in the sky didn't change from that golden ray,
painted with those pinks and purples.
It was the day dusk did not sleep.
You slide your hand in mine,
Made it clear for the whole world to see.
That I was yours and you were mine.
And when I started to doubt the motion,
You simply leaned closer and kissed my cheek,
And whispered in my ear.
"I love you."
That was the day the mountains shook,
The day when the oceans went silent.
When time stood still for the very first time.
When the colors in the sky didn't change from that golden ray,
pain



12-27-2012 DLD Feature

'Human Trafficking'
Human TraffickingShadows crawl along moldy walls,
Daggered teeth bared in cracks and holes.
She gasps within the nightmare,
As large phantoms creep into her room.
Daddy and mommy never hear her scream,
For they now lay lifeless in crimson puddles.
Dark trades exchanged in secret corners.
Rooms in shadows with slow burning cigarettes.
She stands on a pedestal barely clothed.
Ghost white skin bare to intimate members.
A scarlet shawl covers her face, haunting her eyes.
Until one man growls his hunger and pays her toll.
Sex doll, becomes her famous nickname,
Hard as he desires, ravaged with deep aggression.
Her cries are blotted out in her basement chambers,
Blood and bruises are her constant reward.
For the imprisonment of her master's game.
When his itch is scratched he climbs on off,
Out her chamber, the lights go out.
She aches in the darkness, crying within her cage.
There is no freedom, no hope for the light.
A dirty little secret, a big 'ld lie.
Greedy 'ld men, a girl's broken heart.
The darkness h



Pay it forward features by lacoterie


Pay it forward February 1st 2013 My sinI bow at His Throne,
And praise how I love Him so.
I write poetry to infuse words so divine
To show Him that I mean each line.
I rage about sin in a holy confession…
Tick…tock…tick tock…
But my confession is this,
I'm the sinner needing Salvation.
I down talk the other sins,
But mine is the biggest.
For it consumes my very being.
Tick tock…tick tock…
'I love him.' I try to tell God,
Like that would make Him understand.
That He can bypass me and my shame.
I'm fooling only the naïve part of me.
So I roll up this newspaper, pretend…
Pretend like the headlines don't matter.
But its screaming out on the page.
Tick tock…. Tick tock…
I'm a sinner with only One Way out.
I'm an adulterer with only One Way out.
I'm a liar with only One Way out.
I'm a failure with only One Way out.
I'm dead with only One Way to Live.
Christ died on the cross for me,
Bought every single lie I believe.
He was nailed to that wood for my sin.
The whips He endured for

Pay it forward March 4th 2013 These wordsI spit bullets and speak daggers.
Your emotionless shields are your only defense,
against these words that kill like a disease.


Video of Gideon and me.
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A sad tell.Sobs broke free
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An honor

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 12, 2014, 9:09 AM




So I got the most amazing news the other day, the best news I have gotten concerning any of my books. LAST  Thursday (the 4th) Dr. Woodall and his son Aaron came on our Live show. My mom asked Mrs. Woodall if she would read my book 'Salvation Crossing' and give a review on it before she passed it along to our dear friend Lori (director of the Austin Pregnancy Resource Center). On Sunday morning (7th) Mrs. Woodall finished the book and loved it so much she had idea to ask Lori if they could buy a copy for each of their tables for the Austin Pregnancy Resource Center Banquet on the 25th of this month. Anyone who donates at each table has a chance to win either a copy of my book or a DVD copy of the speech Aaron shared on our Live show.
80 tables, 80 copies of 'Salvation Crossing'. 80 people reading my book.
I'm sooooo excited about this opportunity, and pray that God touches these lives through the pages of this novel.



From now until the date of the Dogtoberfest, October 18th, part of all sales that I make off of my books 'Beyond the Field' 'Beauty from Ashes' and 'Salvation Crossing' will be donated to the Austin German Shepherd Dog Rescue, along with the Austin Pregnancy Resource Center. I pray that come the Dogtoberfest the proceeds I make will help, in some way or another, the AGSDR and APRC. If you are a reader, or know someone who loves to get lost in the pages of a novel, I encourage you to check out my books below. Know that your dollars spent are going to two very good causes!
The only one of the three that has a age limit to read is 'Salvation Crossing.', it reads from ages 15 and up. Where the other two ages 13 and up.

Salvation Crossing:
Amazon: www.amazon.com/Salvation-Cross…
Createspace: www.createspace.com/4943276

Beyond the Field:
Amazon: www.amazon.com/Beyond-Field-1-…
Createspace: www.createspace.com/4860162

Beauty from Ashes:
Amazon: www.amazon.com/Beauty-Ashes-tr…


Also concerning the Dogtoberfest this year, I will be one of two photographers taking photos at the Photo Booth. They expect over 600 dogs to be photographed this year! It should be so much fun! And so so many dogs,  thousands of dogs will be at the Dogtoberfest. The AGSDR is be one of the eight Rescues benefiting from this years Dogtoberfest!
Strange how things start looking up after my dad is gone, strange because though it all excites me, it just doesn't feel like it should because he isn't here. I know he would so happy for me, and that makes me happy!


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Amazing gifts from friends!


Must continue writing my acrostic values series.
:bulletgreen: Purity
:bulletgreen: Hope
:bulletgreen: Love/Compassion/Courage
:bulletgreen: Faith
:bulletgreen: Baby's life
:bulletgreen: Believe
:bulletgreen: Self-Control.
:bulletred: Holiness
:bulletred: Joy
:bulletred: Praise
:bulletred: Gentleness
:bulletred: Patience
:bulletred: Trust
:bulletred: Peace
:bulletred: Sacrifice

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:bulletblue: 2013 Goal 365 pieces.
:bulletgreen: Completed: 72
:bulletyellow: To do: 294

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Gardevrose Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I know I have barely been on dA as of late, but I wanna wish you a happy birthday. :D You were the first person to reach out to me, to grant me hope on this site, to inspire me. And it's thanks to you that I've made it this far.
Here's to wishing you a wonderful birthday! Despite the tragedy that's stricken you...
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Christianonfire7 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel speechless after reading this.
Reading comments like this reminds me why I do what I do, why I keep pushing on even within the pain. Because to help inspire others, like yourself, is the very purpose why I do anything in life. It blesses me, because I know beyond anything else my dad would be proud to hear about testimonies like this. 
So thank you, so much, for taking the time not only to wish me a happy birthday, but to share how, in however I did so, inspired you and that you have come this far.

Thank you, I'm so, so honored. :cuddle: 
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Jazzy-C-Oaks Featured By Owner 3 days ago   General Artist
Happy :cake: Birthday!
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Christianonfire7 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you. :)
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FCU777 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Student Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND GOD BLESS YOU!! 1st Emoticon: Happy Birthday Happy Birthday Grin Happy Birthday Godliek :D happy birthday Birthdy-emote
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Christianonfire7 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks.
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Tatzuyoshi Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the fave! :la: 
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Christianonfire7 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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Inemiset Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I wanna be the first to comment with a Happy Birthday!!

So happy Early Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :heart:

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Christianonfire7 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I doubt it will be, but thank you. :hug:

And yay for being the first. ;)
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